PRIVATE- July the dang 2nd...

Hi All;
Am looking for a few answers (and probably a hug or three)...

My back is as bad as it gets.

I am living with a 31 year old who most days looks at me like she is angry with me (still)? . And I made up my mind long ago, not to broach the Trainwreck issue with either of my oldest; so it's not going to happen- Either they come to fix what they began 2 and a half years ago, or they don't. (Kinda simple that way.

Oh Jenne does laugh too- thought I'd better qualify that so you do not misinterpret what follows.
And I do know how depressed she is, barely able to contain herself a lot of the time.
Aaron swears he has changed, and has bought an airline ticket to fly in on the 6th to Milwaukee. He told her that she would be going home with him and that he would be driving.
Of course she wants to be with her husband. That's the way it should be anyway.
Is it healthy? Absolutely not.

Have I said anything that could be misconstrued as advice? Ditto. She has not asked, and I have not offered.

She is at a counseling session right now- She said she needs to be hospitalized, but will wait and see what they advise.

Some damn mother I am.
Some damn birthday.

I can't even bend to get stuff off the floor, nor can I lug out the fricking vacuum. I can't stand my house.
Oh wait, I can't stand.
(Barely anyway).

And I saw an effing flea yesterday! How gross is that?
I can't fumigate with Isaiah anywhere near. He has that disease.
And it's probably not recommended for Jenne and a high risk pregnancy either.
Granted I only saw one-
But isn't that a lot like seeing one mouse? Only worse?

My effing tub doesn't drain, and most days I cannot bail the water out- Those days Jenne just doesn't get in the shower.

And I want to kick her in the ass for being so discompassionate to my back and my inability right now.

I barely get the wash done- Difficult to even get the wash out of the washer and into the dryer, but now she will do a load, and leave it and not say anything.
God I love having to redo wash. Not.

I am so much in pain that nothing is easy. But I make dinner, even though I have told her to get something out of the freezer in the mornings... Made some tater tot casserole last night, and it took me 3 times of having to sit and then go back to it.

Pissed and in pain is no way to go through life.

Casey comes out and helps where she can. But she is sick too. And how unfair to even expect that when she can barely keep up at her place.

She (KC) finally called a realtor yesterday to find out about the availability of duplexes on the reservation- God knows I am not selling my home just to get my st00pid effing back fixed.
And they are taking way too much time in Washington to get that medical bill passed.

I just want to cry... But won't start with that either.
One kid on the pity pot 24/7 is more than enough for me.

And Punk only hides when she cries. (Jenne that is)... Poor little pup.

What have I done?

...And how do I fooking fix it?

Thank you for any ideas you might have...

XOXO
Anne


PS
Then this morning, as I thought to do a blog, this comes on my page on Yahoo.
Guess you all have enough brain to figure out what is going on from the note...
(Oh, their daughter Cassie had a kidney transplant 2 weeks ago, and is battling with rejection issues at University of Wisconsin, Madison)

This is the note I wrote to Casey and Krisitn, (Master Gabriels Foster Mom)...


To: Kristin; Casey Gmail
Subject: Gabriels Mom- CONFLICT of INTEREST?

Something stinky Dearest Kristin,
But first of all to say I hope that Miss Cassie is doing well, and 'maybe' even home by now?  Please give her (and yourself) a hug from me. Prayers always as you already know...

Oh and to let you know that I don't reply to your text msgs because they cost me for each one- Please do not feel offended by my "Scrooginess"...

Now the bad news...
I received 3 notifications on my page about Berta
This is her current address to the best of my knowledge.


(Above address is actually in the town of Wrightstown ).
Kind of a pricey home too from what I found online...

She apparently lives with a Susan Brickham, 52, (divorced from Bruce LaCombe in 1998),
Bruce has a record at the state that includes a child abuse restraining order, but I cannot get those case details.
He was brought to court by a Mary Cornell on those charges.

ANYWAY, ALL of Bertas charges pending with the state have been freakin' dismissed!
What in the hell is that all about???
('Scuse the cussing please, I am very angry). Know that if it was you or I, we would be serving time by now.

ALL of Roberta's fines are also mysteriously paid in full.

I also believe since there seems to be no court officials listed on this database that there could be a definite conflict of interest since this Susan Brickham works for the county!
She is a clerk in data control for HS!!!!

Here is what I found...

Brown County employees.

Name Last    BRICKHAM
Name First    SUSAN
Job Title    CLERK IV / DATA CONTROL
Total Earnings    $33,195.32
Department    HS-FINANCIAL SERVICES
Year    2008

Hope that posts for you...

Please let me know what you think...

Love to all!
(And maybe an extra "Grandma Kiss" for Master Gabriel)!?

XOXO
Me

I don't know if contacting Rachel would be a good/bad thing- Hard (difficult if not impossible) for a newer worker to be investigating someone who has been around for a time...
I wish I knew exactly what to do- Am hoping that maybe you or your hubby would know...

Her reply...
To: "'ANNE; Anna-Anna;'" <onthefarm@prodigy.net>
Date: Thursday, July 2, 2009, 9:01 AM

">Well here  is our  thinking ,

  First  off it  does  seem  a little  suspicious  BUT  she  has not  contacted BCHS & done any of her court orderd conditions in the Chips( are  those  erased  also?) 
So not sure if any of this has a bearing on the TPR? 

I talked to Gabe’s GAL on Tuesday & he  doesn’t expect her to show up in court (just  like last  time).

I  would assume if she was working to reunify he would know (depends how much faith you have in system)
We  have  been  given the gift  of  loving Gabe so far for 10 months and will  continue to  carry on   as long as   is  necessary 

She  has been told   what  she  needs to do  &  so that  part  confuses me  as far as if this  friend is  so   system savvy  why  is  she not  advising  her  to   fight .

Maybe she has given up?

She still has a 30 day window after decision    to contest   . 

Because  my  mind  obsesses  with all the possibilities I  try  to  focus on the facts  &  not the  unknown (I never  pick the right scenario anyway )

 Let me know

thanks Kristin