-Mama is second from left-
Good Morning All;
Just wanted to touch base with everyone, and say hi.
I know this should not affect me as it does, still.
It does.
A few of you do already know of the anniversary of my parents deaths. Even fewer mention it. Why do people not talk about close death? Are they afraid to?
Mama's was just 2 days ago, and Dad's is coming up early next month.
Bear with me if you will. It is still a crappy time of year for me.
Casey has an infusion this morning-
I have already (sort of) cleaned up- I finished the dishes from last night, and got started on the wash as well.
Did some mowing yesterday, not enough daylight anymore. What's up with that?!? hehehe
Why doesn't the world just 'spring ahead' half an hour and then leave it alone?
Time to fly. Kind of foggy out there this morning...
Try to have a good and happy Tuesday!
XOXO
Me
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ReplyDeleteYour Mama is beautiful!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry for your loss Annie. It's been 12 years ago thin month that I lost my wonderful S-Dad. I miss him everyday. I know how you feel.
ReplyDeleteBe careful on the road.
oxox,
snotball
your mother is beautiful Annie, I think of the loss of my sisters and my Daddy on the anniversary of their deaths also. Try to think happy thoughts about them, the laughter you shared, the good times.
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xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
It has been 6 yrs.-8months since my hubby died what can I say sigh ;(
ReplyDeleteWell you know I will listen anytime. I lost my son 10 years ago. He was 15 months old and died in July. It is hard and no people dont like to talk about it but I do so that's what I do. I talk about it all the time. He was my son after all just like they were your parents. I love ya girl.
ReplyDeletethat's a cool picture of your mom. mine passed away in March of last year. I get sentimental every now and again, it doesn't matter what time of year it is. {{hugs}}
ReplyDeletesory about your loss the pain never really goes away does it sigh :)
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ReplyDeleteI for one just do not understand what daylight we are supposed to be saving. Seems to me we lose more of it all the time.
Thats like my family(even Bruce) refuses to acknowledge the fact I miscarried at 17 weeks..as if it was nothing. January(22 yrs ago this coming Jan) is my hard month and October for my grandfather( the one who loved rainbows as much as I do) and my nephew( who was 2 weeks overdue and hung himself inside his Mom on his cord...really long story). Just can't understand why no one wants to talk about them. It hurts my sister inlaw..it seems to her that everyone(save me) has forgotten Ryan. She still puts his Christmas ornament I made him on her tree at Christmas.
ReplyDeleteBe careful out on the foggy mornings. Hope ya'll have a good day..and that they had no problems with Casey's IV this morning.
Yes I must agree your Mama was a very attractive lady.
ReplyDelete"Why do people not talk about close death? Are they afraid to?"
The passing of someones loved one is a very touchy subject for people to raise with the person who has lost a person dear to them Anna as people would hate to see a close friend or work colleague upset and or bring back sad memories mate,
Julie has had one miscarriage but we look at it in the way that, it just wasn't meant to be.
I have lost several members of my family including mother and father but feel nothing as I suppose I have become numb to some things in life for personal reasons. All the best with Casey's infusion I hope all goes well with it. That is one top idea about the world just 'springing ahead' half an hour and be done with it, sounds like a political debate is on the cards.
My condolences to you Anna if I were closer I would comfort you but I am far away {{ HUGS }}
starfishred, Thank you for your sympathy and I cant imagine how you feel with your loss. Im truely sorry to hear of yours also. No, the pain never goes away we just learn to deal with it. Some days are better, some hours are better, some years are better. Then again some are worse. The last couple years have been atrocious for me. Hopefully this up coming year will be better. Good luck and if you ever need a shoulder I have two.
ReplyDeleteHaving a quite moment on Tue, thinking about my Grandma. Gone for over a decade now. Swear she was sitting next to me, as I could remember how she smelled, like I was smelling it. I could remember her table cloth pattern (that I haven't seen in many many years). I could remember the feel of her wet kisses on my cheeks, and the inflection in her voice as she used the word "spunky" to describe my person. I remembered the texture of her oatmeal, and the smell of her soup. A picture of her working in her garden with her big hats emblazoned in my mind. The sound of her snoring loudly at naptime filled my ears as well as her frequent exclamations of how beautiful I am! The ivory soap smell in her bathroom and the hundreds of lipsticks I spent too much time trying on as a child. The way she would pretend she couldn't hear as her sly way of eavesdropping. Geesh I miss her. I was getting my toenails painted yesterday at the nail salon in the mall, and there was a young girl and her grandma getting a pedicure and I heard the Grandma exclaim loudly. "But I like my long witchy nails", and I remembered my Grandma sticking her long fingers with her own "Long witchy nails" up my winter jacket to pull my long sleeved shirt down and her pinching my arm accidentally several times before she could grab my sleeve. Time does nothing to heal some losses. I would give most anything to see her waving goodbye in the entrance of her house with a big smile on her face and the brightest light in her eyes.
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ReplyDeleteThank you!
ReplyDeleteThat she is.
Inside AND out.
ReplyDeleteMy sympathies to you on the loss of your sdad.
These people just live in our hearts, and their own, while they live; then they leave us feeling alone.
But we are not.
Not once we remember where they really are.
And where they stay.
Mama has been gone for 12 years as well. Seems as November 1998 was a raunchy month for us both.
XOXO
Me
ReplyDeleteMama gets more beautiful every time I see a picture of her.
I do think the happy thoughts- Sometimes it is ever so comforting.
At other times, it makes me miss them all the more.
ReplyDeleteThose that live on in our hearts are never truly that far away- even though we count the years and the days and the hours at times.
I am so sorry for your loss...
XOXO
me
ReplyDeleteI know you will listen, and feel too -
Your own loss is one that is ever so wrong! Babies are never supposed to die before their parents.
There are times that I can talk about my own losses, and other times that my throat just closes up something awful.
... And life itself goes on.
And renews itself
I prefer to think that my own parents now are so busy seeing and watching over my grandbabies and children on a permanent basis.
XOXO
Me
She would swat me for posting that picture-
ReplyDeletePersonally, I "LOVE" this shot of her-
It shows me how human she really was before she got married, and adopted us kids- Perhaps a bit of a hellraiser too, as she admitted to having danced on a table or two.
hehehe
I curse DST for about 6 months- Then I return to 'normal'.
ReplyDeletehehehe (Yes, I put the word "I" and "normal" in the same sentence.
Still laughing at that.
You know loss as well. They remain with us always, somehow.
I never miscarried- unless it was a twin of Berta's way back when- (Something went horribly wrong with that pregnancy, even before I knew I was pregnant).
ReplyDeleteI believe that once your baby has implanted, and you are acutely aware of its presence- even before movement is felt, that this child is a real person to be loved.
You loved your child, and your child's life was cut short.
That is wrong on many levels- Mostly it is wrong because, as I said to Darla, babies are NOT supposed to die before their parents.
I too would mourn that loss.
A friend of mine, who was pregnant at the same time as Zoe, lost her baby- much like your nephew, just not yet overdue.
Due at Christmas that year, Julie had to carry that child until her body determined it was time to let go. I cannot imagine knowing your own baby is dead, and having to go on knowing that. And waiting for the inevitable.
He had tied a knot in his cord, undetected, until he got so big...
Do you think that Julie has the same point of view of that miscarriage as you do?
ReplyDeleteJust being nosy.
I do not like to upset people either- but I do take my cues from them if they seem to be harboring a touch of melancholy or whatever.
Once asked, most will admit why; and a conversation of comfort, or compassion, might then ensue.
As far as numbness goes- I feel that more often when I think f Reianna- Not that she didn't die- Just that it really hurts to think that one pill killed her. And for NO reason really.
(At least no reason that would ever be 'right' by me).
ReplyDeleteHow wonderful you are always.
And how very very kind...
Your comment was read almost as soon as you'd posted it.
ReplyDeleteIt is also the very reason that I have not been able to be 'on' as much as usual.
... talk about a sobering thought-
Your words, from your heart, captured such an essence of my own mother-
I too, would give most anything to spend a day with my parents. To have them see my own grandbabies- to see the light of love in their eyes as they hold them each.
And to have them see my own eyes as I see my own grandbabies...
But that is only what separates us from the hereafter SD, it is that we cannot 'see' them always.
They are there.
I promise.
XOXO
Me
I'm sorry if my words hurt you in any way. I am hoping for you to see your grandbabies soon. Thank you for your encouraging words.
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ReplyDeleteYour words did not hurt me.
They drove home truth and beauty.
Always, truth and beauty have a profound effect on me.
I thank you for that. And I love you always.
XOXO
Me
I love you too.
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