Feeling tossed out like yesterdays trash- (even though I have worn these shoes for more than a few years already). I have a heart. It is just completely broken now.
Stop beating the horse. I believe he is quite dead.
If it makes any difference, I love you and would never play heartgames. You're right, they are cruel. I pity whomever hurt you. THEY are the one with no heart.
Just call me shocked, (as only a good blindsiding can do) - and w-a-a-a-a-y too damned trusting. In the end though it is always like I said- Actions really do speak louder than words. As do inactions.
In my thoughts Anna, i ended up in the hospital Saturday early morning....colitis...possible food poisoning from a dinner they gave me at work at a favorite Chinese buffet...I am taking early retirement...just starting to feel human again somewhat...Is scary when blood is pouring out of you...and the pain...they hooked me up with an Iv to give me fluids and pain meds...Hope you are doing fine...love ya, Barbara
Why are some "House" scenes running through my mind when you write of the blood pouring out? I am glad that you have recovered enough to even be on the computer- My friend Kelli has "collagenous colitis" (sp)- She was dx'ed about 4 years ago and deals with this every day- sometimes every hour. I do not blame you one bit for retiring early, and am thrilled that this is an option you can even consider!
I am ok. Just these days are so filled with pain, even on my meds that I fight the urge to want to go to the ER and get relief which I could get, but then it's only for a few measly hours, so what's the point... If it gets to the point that I cannot even sleep for a few hours at a time then I will go in- (and back to my pain management doctor too). hehehe
Going to be a while before you order "Chinese" again, isn't it? When Casey had her 1st godawful pancreatitis attack it was after we had ordered food in. She had ordered a "Southwest Chicken Wrap" I don't think she has ever eaten one again!
Now shoo- Go get some sleep, and rest your weary bowels. hehehe All kidding aside, please get on a decent daily vitamin (no iron) -and calcium/Vitamin D, routine as well. My own digestive tract has never been so very healthy.
Crap. Now that means I am a doormat. (In all honesty though you are most probably correct about that too).
And yes, it does mean the same thing (a world of hurt) either way we look at it. So ultimately my question becomes 'why do i do that over and over again to myself?' Damn, hey?
And here I was thinking that maybe I was the one, being so damned crippled up some days. that I might have left them feeling taken advantage of. However, I also realize that losing sleep [or tears] over someone who lies and craps out on another human being is just not worth my time and effort.
I hope I have not missed an important post Anna :-(
People who play games on the heartlights of others are just plain cruel. Yes they are Anna, they are a very low person indeed, who probably didn't really have your interest as a person in mind all the time mate :-( They are the losers in all this is how I see things like this Anna
Unfortunately I have to take iron pills as my iron is low...so it is a fight not to have it get too low...They actually were changing the program at work after 25 years and i knew I would not be happy with these changes, so opted to retire and focus more on mywriting and some other interests...am kind of looking forward to this, as i know I will still be in contact with many of the people I have met and worked with over the years...they will probably always call me when they need any advice...so it is good. It was the thought of turning my back on them they made me hesitate, but I know that will not be an issue. Even if i am not officially working, I would not turn my back on them if they needed my help.
Yes, this was so painful...and i gave birth to three kids with no drugs, so I can handle pain...but this pain was gut wrenching. They had said they were giving me morphine, and I said NO...but they insisted I needed this so they gave me a low dosage to at least help some.
LOL...yes won't be going back there anytime soon, and it is a shame as it is a favorite of mine...
Sorry to hear you are dealing with so much pain ...I truly pray they are able to do more to help you with this. I guess when blood starts pouring out it is a pretty bad case... they have me on two antibiotics and are setting up an appointment with a gastro clinic...My bowels are slowing down because I am taking tynelol with codeine in it , so it kind of binds you some, which in this case is good, as it is only blood coming out...
what about that ass kicking? lol still needed or no??? hugs... take care my friend...
Unfortunately I have to take iron pills as my iron is low...so it is a fight not to have it get too low...They actually were changing the program at work after 25 years and i knew I would not be happy with these changes, so opted to retire and focus more on mywriting and some other interests...am kind of looking forward to this, as i know I will still be in contact with many of the people I have met and worked with over the years...they will probably always call me when they need any advice...so it is good. It was the thought of turning my back on them they made me hesitate, but I know that will not be an issue. Even if i am not officially working, I would not turn my back on them if they needed my help.
Yes, this was so painful...and i gave birth to three kids with no drugs, so I can handle pain...but this pain was gut wrenching. They had said they were giving me morphine, and I said NO...but they insisted I needed this so they gave me a low dosage to at least help some.
LOL...yes won't be going back there anytime soon, and it is a shame as it is a favorite of mine...
Sorry to hear you are dealing with so much pain ...I truly pray they are able to do more to help you with this. I guess when blood starts pouring out it is a pretty bad case... they have me on two antibiotics and are setting up an appointment with a gastro clinic...My bowels are slowing down because I am taking tynelol with codeine in it , so it kind of binds you some, which in this case is good, as it is only blood coming out...
what about that ass kicking? lol still needed or no??? hugs... take care my friend...
ok...its after 1 am and I am getting ready to do my compression therapy and then go to bed as I have my knee surgery in the morning at 10 am...yea!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so out of it as to what all is going on...so fill me in..pm me...it might be a few days before I check back in over here....depends on how crazy I am after the surgery. But I'll have a new knee after tomorrow and will be able to kick some serious butt in a few weeks..lol hugs!!
Don't know why my sentence above just cut off but may be appropriate. We have only been so short a time since we found friendship, but I value it non the less. I have been in the hospital three weeks and counting. Next move is on to a care facility before home. I'm saddened that we suffer due to our bodies, but the fact that family and friends betray us, break us into pieces continue to declare they care. You my friend are a precious gift and Karma takes care of those that harm us. Please take joy from the fact that you are loved by so many. It does not replace the intimate relationships we so deserve, but each day you get countless people through another day. May your God relieveyour tears of sorrow with tears of joy. Bless you my Beloved friend.
Hi Anna....it looks like you deleted my comment so I guess I need not come back. I'm sorry you feel that way. I tried to be here more often and I did my best. God bless you.
Some people only have their interests at heart and don't care about hurting anyone else.... The thing is, they don't have a heart, because they do these hurtful things to people.... Walked in those same shoes you have too, too many times Annie.... Sorry you are going through this.... No one should have to endure that kind of hurt.... You are much better without that person.... Keep your head high, smile and know we are here for you....
ReplyDeleteFeeling tossed out like yesterdays trash- (even though I have worn these shoes for more than a few years already).
I have a heart. It is just completely broken now.
Stop beating the horse. I believe he is quite dead.
If it makes any difference, I love you and would never play heartgames. You're right, they are cruel. I pity whomever hurt you. THEY are the one with no heart.
ReplyDeleteoxox,
foreveryoursnotballsister
ReplyDeleteJust call me shocked, (as only a good blindsiding can do) - and w-a-a-a-a-y too damned trusting.
In the end though it is always like I said- Actions really do speak louder than words.
As do inactions.
In my thoughts Anna, i ended up in the hospital Saturday early morning....colitis...possible food poisoning from a dinner they gave me at work at a favorite Chinese buffet...I am taking early retirement...just starting to feel human again somewhat...Is scary when blood is pouring out of you...and the pain...they hooked me up with an Iv to give me fluids and pain meds...Hope you are doing fine...love ya, Barbara
ReplyDeleteOr....have they simply perfected the tool of taking advantage of another? I suppose it means the same thing either way we look at it, right.
ReplyDeleteWhy are some "House" scenes running through my mind when you write of the blood pouring out?
ReplyDeleteI am glad that you have recovered enough to even be on the computer-
My friend Kelli has "collagenous colitis" (sp)-
She was dx'ed about 4 years ago and deals with this every day- sometimes every hour.
I do not blame you one bit for retiring early, and am thrilled that this is an option you can even consider!
I am ok. Just these days are so filled with pain, even on my meds that I fight the urge to want to go to the ER and get relief which I could get, but then it's only for a few measly hours, so what's the point...
If it gets to the point that I cannot even sleep for a few hours at a time then I will go in- (and back to my pain management doctor too). hehehe
Going to be a while before you order "Chinese" again, isn't it?
When Casey had her 1st godawful pancreatitis attack it was after we had ordered food in. She had ordered a "Southwest Chicken Wrap" I don't think she has ever eaten one again!
Now shoo- Go get some sleep, and rest your weary bowels. hehehe
All kidding aside, please get on a decent daily vitamin (no iron) -and calcium/Vitamin D, routine as well. My own digestive tract has never been so very healthy.
XOXO
Me
Hehehe
ReplyDeleteWhat would I do without you in my life?!
You are preachin' to the choir about life not being fair...
But you already know that too.
XOXO
Me
Crap.
ReplyDeleteNow that means I am a doormat.
(In all honesty though you are most probably correct about that too).
And yes, it does mean the same thing (a world of hurt) either way we look at it.
So ultimately my question becomes 'why do i do that over and over again to myself?'
Damn, hey?
XOXO
me
ReplyDeleteAnd here I was thinking that maybe I was the one, being so damned crippled up some days. that I might have left them feeling taken advantage of.
However, I also realize that losing sleep [or tears] over someone who lies and craps out on another human being is just not worth my time and effort.
I hope I have not missed an important post Anna :-(
ReplyDeletePeople who play games on the heartlights of others are just plain cruel.
Yes they are Anna, they are a very low person indeed, who probably didn't really have your interest as a person in mind all the time mate :-( They are the losers in all this is how I see things like this Anna
Unfortunately I have to take iron pills as my iron is low...so it is a fight not to have it get too low...They actually were changing the program at work after 25 years and i knew I would not be happy with these changes, so opted to retire and focus more on mywriting and some other interests...am kind of looking forward to this, as i know I will still be in contact with many of the people I have met and worked with over the years...they will probably always call me when they need any advice...so it is good. It was the thought of turning my back on them they made me hesitate, but I know that will not be an issue. Even if i am not officially working, I would not turn my back on them if they needed my help.
ReplyDeleteYes, this was so painful...and i gave birth to three kids with no drugs, so I can handle pain...but this pain was gut wrenching. They had said they were giving me morphine, and I said NO...but they insisted I needed this so they gave me a low dosage to at least help some.
LOL...yes won't be going back there anytime soon, and it is a shame as it is a favorite of mine...
Sorry to hear you are dealing with so much pain ...I truly pray they are able to do more to help you with this. I guess when blood starts pouring out it is a pretty bad case... they have me on two antibiotics and are setting up an appointment with a gastro clinic...My bowels are slowing down because I am taking tynelol with codeine in it , so it kind of binds you some, which in this case is good, as it is only blood coming out...
what about that ass kicking? lol still needed or no??? hugs... take care my friend...
Unfortunately I have to take iron pills as my iron is low...so it is a fight not to have it get too low...They actually were changing the program at work after 25 years and i knew I would not be happy with these changes, so opted to retire and focus more on mywriting and some other interests...am kind of looking forward to this, as i know I will still be in contact with many of the people I have met and worked with over the years...they will probably always call me when they need any advice...so it is good. It was the thought of turning my back on them they made me hesitate, but I know that will not be an issue. Even if i am not officially working, I would not turn my back on them if they needed my help.
ReplyDeleteYes, this was so painful...and i gave birth to three kids with no drugs, so I can handle pain...but this pain was gut wrenching. They had said they were giving me morphine, and I said NO...but they insisted I needed this so they gave me a low dosage to at least help some.
LOL...yes won't be going back there anytime soon, and it is a shame as it is a favorite of mine...
Sorry to hear you are dealing with so much pain ...I truly pray they are able to do more to help you with this. I guess when blood starts pouring out it is a pretty bad case... they have me on two antibiotics and are setting up an appointment with a gastro clinic...My bowels are slowing down because I am taking tynelol with codeine in it , so it kind of binds you some, which in this case is good, as it is only blood coming out...
what about that ass kicking? lol still needed or no??? hugs... take care my friend...
ok...its after 1 am and I am getting ready to do my compression therapy and then go to bed as I have my knee surgery in the morning at 10 am...yea!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI am so out of it as to what all is going on...so fill me in..pm me...it might be a few days before I check back in over here....depends on how crazy I am after the surgery.
But I'll have a new knee after tomorrow and will be able to kick some serious butt in a few weeks..lol
hugs!!
Oh my dear friend it pains me to hear you are suffering from heartache
ReplyDeleteDon't know why my sentence above just cut off but may be appropriate. We have only been so short a time since we found friendship, but I value it non the less. I have been in the hospital three weeks and counting. Next move is on to a care facility before home. I'm saddened that we suffer due to our bodies, but the fact that family and friends betray us, break us into pieces continue to declare they care. You my friend are a precious gift and Karma takes care of those that harm us. Please take joy from the fact that you are loved by so many. It does not replace the intimate relationships we so deserve, but each day you get countless people through another day. May your God relieveyour tears of sorrow with tears of joy. Bless you my Beloved friend.
ReplyDeleteHi Anna....it looks like you deleted my comment so I guess I need not come back. I'm sorry you
ReplyDeletefeel that way. I tried to be here more often and I did my best. God bless you.
Have a gentle night,
Bev
Dear Bev;
ReplyDeleteI do not delete comments. Ever.
Notice that it says deleted by author. I am the "thread owner".
That would be you.
XOXO
Me
I will be back later to reply to everyone-
ReplyDeleteFor now the temps are rising and I have prescripts to pick up- and mynew glasses too.
Off for now!
Have a good one, and get out of the heat!
XOXO
Me
Well ok. Not entirely true-
ReplyDeleteUnless they are profane or the like.
Suffice to say that I would never delete Bev's.
XOXO
Me
Some people only have their interests at heart and don't care about hurting anyone else....
ReplyDeleteThe thing is, they don't have a heart, because they do these hurtful things to people....
Walked in those same shoes you have too, too many times Annie....
Sorry you are going through this....
No one should have to endure that kind of hurt....
You are much better without that person....
Keep your head high, smile and know we are here for you....
Love you much!
XOXOXOXO