Good Morning Everyone;
Kind of a rough day yesterday... Casey to the doctor, and with an Xray that indicated she might have the beginnings of another bleb on her right lung; or it may just be a small pneumothorax... Time will tell;, but for now the best news is that there is no need for a chest tube. She is still asleep here...
I hope you all had a great, and safe, Halloween. I shall post later, but suffice it to say that my OLDest daughter, who has always brought My Little Miss Valerie to Grandma's home never did come this year. Perhaps next year Sam and Katie will have her to take trick~or~treating.
Yes, Zoe knows full well how much this hurts me. And yes, too; as Valeries mother, she can do whatever she wants.
But it really must be something to be proud of to get through life; to be able to look back and say, "Yeah, I 'got' my mother. I hurt her bad, and every chance that I could too."
Now that must be very fulfilling to her own soul, (wouldn't you agree)?
Like they say, "your mother must be very proud." (Kinda sad, ain't it)?
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Yup, my granddaughter can't stand me! hehehe
(C'mon, can't you tell)?
NOT!
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The topic came up of course yesterday...
...And as I replied, had he lived, my father would only have said that 'she needs a good swift kick in the A$$.'
(And yes, after all of the garbage I have gone through this past year, I am also sure that he would have provided it as well).
Anyone that actually knew my father would know this to be true.
My mother would only have been as hurt as I am, probably even more~so, had she been alive now too.
May God bless both of my parents; and might He also turn their heads from this too.
For now though, I am content enough to know that children grow up. (Well OK, most of them do).
And I have so much faith in Miss Valeries love for me that she will be coming to see her grandma sooner than anyone can/will give credit for!
In a little over 11 years, she will be 18.
Valerie hasn't a mean bone in her body, her spirit or her soul...
And in these next few years; time, life, and love will teach Valerie that I always, ALWAYS, have loved her. That I have loved them all! And that, is ever so very comforting to this mothers/grandmothers heart.
Anybody not up to speed about this part of my life, won't you kindly drop me a line below. I will gladly fill you in on what I can say about it.
Time. Life. Love. How much do any of us really have?
Happy November!
XOXO
Anne
